Dark Room

As I entered the dark room

Everything felt cold.

The feeling of endless pain and doom,

True feelings unfold.

I turned to face the door,

I found myself locked up.

My body slowly fell down on the floor,

As my heart was about to pop.

I can't breathe, I can't scream.

I'm fading away.

My tears flowing like a stream,

How long should I stay?

Why am I here?

What did I do to deserve such pain?

Why is everything so unclear?

I'm going insane.

Will someone help me?

Will someone open the door?

Will someone ever see,

I'm breaking from the core?

Light was shining through the window

I wanted to escape.

Wishing it to be a dreamer's meadow,

Though I know it is a nightmare landscape.

I can reach for the door,

But I can't seem to open it.

Am I expecting more

Or expecting a bit.

When I opened it and got out.

I saw people smiling.

I was full of doubt

When I saw myself fading.

I couldn't fit in,

Everywhere I go, I was alone.

I don't remember where I've been,

Not a slight of happiness shown.

It hurts to see people smile.

It hurts to see them fine.

But it hurts more pretending to smile

When I'm on the end of my line.

My light and innocence stolen,

Happiness will never be found.

My soul and heart, broken

And toxicity around.

As my time was ticking

I slowly lost my soul.

As my heart was leaking,

I knew I will never be whole.

I took a step back from the world I'm in.

I went back to the room.

Coz no one will ever understand the pain I'm in.

The feeling of endless pain and doom.

If ever I'll die,

If ever I'll be gone.

Will someone cry?

Will someone remember, even just one?

If ever I'll lay myself to eternal rest,

I wish it'll be September.

I know it's not for the best,

But I hope someone will remember.

Remember the days I once smiled.

Remember the times I was torn.

Remember the days I once was a child.

Remember the days when I wasn't born.

Someday I'll be free,

Someday they'll be done.

Someday they'll be happy,

On the day I'll be gone.