Mourning The Death Of A Relationship

I have been through what I describe as acute relationship trauma... you will find a lot of my writing has a recurring theme of unhappiness/dissatisfaction in a relationship. Years from now, these pieces will be known as my "Blue" period... LOL!

 

The pain doesn’t hit home

Until you see the remains

Right in your face. Then there’s

No more denying reality.

The carcass cold,

When all you had to hold

Was a lukewarm, faux feeling

In the first place.

This can’t be love.

This can’t be US.

...disrespecting me in front of

Too many people...

...not fighting back

Because I knew inside

This union was DNR.

It is time to pull the plug.

It is time to let go.

Deep in as roots, though,

So it hurts to admit.

But everyone knows

How tired I am of this s**t.

And as truth seeped in,

I wept.

I cried deep-heaving,

Shoulder-shaking tears.

Grief for my loss.

Loss of time I can never get back.

Loss of mind, realizing as I backtrack.

Loss of effort I may never again put forth

While my future mourns the fact our paths ever crossed.

So sad, making funeral arrangements,

Even though gone is the burden

Of this former terminal patient.

Freedom takes on many forms.

Even though our love is dead,

I continue to live on.

Reviews

[Cassandra]

I feel for you.. I too actually might be in a state of acute relationship trauma. I never thought to give a word to it .. but it too seems like what I'm going through. Maybe not as pronounced as you are.. and I wasn't in an abusive relationship.. I'm just deeply mourning the lack of it. Anyhoo I think it can only be helpful to vent your distress and hurt and I think your poems really capture it. I hope a ray of sunshine cheers up your heart one of these days .

[Deborah Leah Krempa]

This is emotionally sad and beautifully written. Thank you for sharing. Debileah

[Dug]

Sometimes the relationship itself is almost a person. And when it ends, you have to watch them die.