The Enigma

I can't blame people who despise me. But this is who I am. A huge jigsaw puzzle. It's my life, not theirs anyway!

Are you perplexed? Sorry if all this time I’m being enigmatic
I’m striving to be brave, but I do things that make me look pathetic.
I love to see smile on my face but I grieve until I feel so lonely
I want to be free, but I incarcerate myself in doubts, fears and worry.


My dreams are tremendous and I aspire to be on top
But I feel so lethargic and I slack to the max then flop
To be loved, to be adored is what I desire truthfully
But most of the time I hate myself and I don’t admire me.


Am I really strange? Because I’m wrapped in a hard riddle
I can sail through a stormy sea, but I don’t like to paddle.
I say rough comments but I detest backhanded compliment
I have lots of misbehavior yet I act like an innocent


Believe me or not I’m pretty good at giving people advice
But I’m bad at my own decisions so I still need to think thrice.
I want to be happy then get rid of toxic noise
Yet I keep on thinking the things that kill my joys.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Abhishek Izy]

I must say this is so human in nature. I loved your write. We aren't talking about great and inspiring things here, we are just talking about the complications of a common mind and that's something worth pondering about. I'm glad you have chosen a subject which isn't always totally explored. Good work Kevin

[KevinKevz]

I like expressing myself in a way that readers would hate me or understand me. I always see to it that my personality would reflect in any of my works and the feeling was so liberating. Thanks for the reviews again.

[CBH]

"Toxic noise", I love that description. Love the premise of this writing as well; I think we all have a bit of an enigma within ourselves. We feel one way, then turn around to do something completely opposite. This gives me some inspiration for my future work!

[KevinKevz]

Thank you @CBH. I am glad that I ignited a spark of inspiration for you. All the best to all your writes. Gee thanks.

[Robert Trakofler]

note to self, self to note! I like it, like your self examination and truthfulness and i like your writing flow and rhyming scheme and we really don't use the word thrice nearly enough! I like your process this is the way of evolution and i'm all for it particularly in these times.......

[KevinKevz]

Thanks. I'm stuck between using just twice or thrice. But to tell you honestly, I make mistakes not just twice coz I do it 3X or 4X to make it sure. But I appreciate your comments regarding this piece Sir. I'm into rhyming poems and to tell stories that basically reflect who I am.

[Jade]

WOW!! This is so good and so well written. I really enjoyed this write, a lot of imagery and detail. Awesome

[KevinKevz]

Thanks for the review. I deeply appreciate it.