F**k it, I miss you

I can't pretend I don't.... Please don't turn into another person I don't talk to.

I’ll say it

                And I’ll resent it with every fiber of my being

But I miss you

I miss you like the stars miss the moon

                When it’s hidden once a month

There’s emptiness here

                When I realize sometimes

                                Recently

We have barely spoken in weeks

 

And it hurts me

Not as much as the new girl

                On your arm

But our silence

Makes me believe

                I’ve truly lost you

                           Which I guess I have

 

I’m trying to deal with it

                This year

I’m trying not to pine

                Because it’s not pretty

                                And I don’t wear heart broken

And desperate

                Very well

 

And I’m not, so I really shouldn’t come off

                Like that

People make jokes about me having draft pick

                                And how much people beg

                To be my number one

 

But if I let someone love me now

                I’d just be lying

Because I miss you

I know that I hurt you

                But you’re a liar

And heaven forbid you were ever a cheat…

 

                I’d never call you one

But you’ve broken a lot of promises

                                This time

And you remind me of someone

I don’t talk to anymore

 

And it hurts

It hurts me a lot

 

Heaven forbid!

Why do I f*****g miss you?

                I don’t want to

And I don’t want to love you

And I should’ve known

                                You and I

We would never work

 

You were never willing to tell me

                You missed me

 

Do you miss me?

                Even a little bit?

 

I guess these are answers I don’t really want

                But don’t forget

                                I’ve held you when you cried

Author's Note

everything is intentional

Reviews

[Lyn Anderson]

No matter what, when you break up, unless it's a really bad one, where the love is entirely gone, and all the feelings have been squashed, you will miss him, until you don't. And sometimes, it's a long time before you don't, even if you don't want to be with that person ever again.

[Jake Donald Stephens]

I've said the title of this poem before. If you need someone in your life, then you do. When it comes down to it, it shouldn't be that hard to tell the difference between someone you need and someone you don't. Anyone who hurts you, and could care less......that person, you don't need.

[kera moondust]

Yeah true.... Thanks =)