Blue Eyed Liars

Well I guess August doesn't get better after all.

My skies are not red

                This summer

Was kind

And I haven’t wandered barefoot

                                Long enough

For callused feet

 

But the heart break

                                Feels just a little

           Worse

This time around

 

I gave you kisses

                And kindness

I held you

                When you cried

 

And oh god trust me

                I gave you all of my

                                Soul

But I’ll be damned if

                I’m the type

                                Who just lets things

Go

 

I still have to wonder

                At least a little

                                Just what always goes wrong?

In

                August

 

I don’t want to be your

On again

                Off again

And you’re right to say

It’s not

                Fair

To me

 

But I guess I was just stupid

And made the same mistake

                Two times in a row

 

I always knew your blue eyes

Were way too good to be

                                True

Blue eyes are always

                                Liars

 

God knows I am…

                How could I ever expect you

                                Too be any different?

 

I won’t lie

Not this time around

I’ll still love you

                Because I still love the cruelest of hearts

 

I have felt my chest collapse

                In this fashion

                                Once or twice before

And god knows

                It hurts me

                                To be here again

 

But I will live

I always do

Through things like this

 

And I have faith

                You’ll regret your decision

                                You did last summer

 

Just heaven forbid I should ever

                Let this happen again.

 

You’ve destroyed me

                One too many

                                Times

 

But maybe

                It’s just

 

 

                me….. 

Author's Note

everything is intentional.