The Edge of the Diving Board

for my boyfriend =p. Sorta.

So here I am

Standing at the edge of the diving board

With my eyes closed

I’m going to end up falling in

I’m not quite as stable as I used to be

But my toes are hanging off the edge

And I can feel the vapor on my skin

 

The vapor of his sea colored eyes

 

I want to fall in

Head first

So I can feel the shock

And have more time to get used to it

I know his heart’s a little cold at first

But with a little luck I can warm it up

 

He surrounds me like an ocean

                That I want to live in

 

I hope I can stay under for awhile

Deep into the fold of his brain

Exploring all the little things

 That make him who he

                                  Is

Because he’s told me he’s been in trouble

But he says I don’t know him well enough to know

What kind of trouble

Or for what

 

And maybe this time it will be mutual enough

For me to catch on the coral reefs of his undertones

So I can know the deepest vessels of his heart

 

I just hope it’s big enough for me to swim through the veins

Like a blue whale

So I can nestle onto the thick walls of his heart

                He’ll be strong enough to hold me close

 

Because god only knows

It’ll take a miracle to hold this broken body close

To his

The walls of my heart are thin in some spots and

Broken

In others

 

But I hope I haven’t spoken too soon

And he stays long enough to find his feet

On the edge of different diving board

And if he needs an extra push

 

Maybe while I’m at the depths of his brain

I can just propel him enough to dive

                                                    In

Head

First.