Euthanize Me

Some gray day I'm not sure what was going on at the time =)

I’d curl up to you

as rain would Shatter the window panes

of some off Light in a Reality I once forgot

watching as I slipped some Novocain into my Heart

through some Substance abuse Fuzzy feeling

that Alcohol would provide me

 

You slur your words at me

Like forks stabbing into plates

Making some off cast sound that no one likes

[nails on a chalkboard]

 

Pounding like hammers in headstones

I gave you my heart

as you slipped me some impossible intoxicant

                              I wish

           You

                           Loved Me

I've got this awful habit

Of falling in love before I know how the other person feels

you don’t love me…

 

It’s all some Child’s game

like Tag or

Ring around the Rosy

Pocket Full of Posy’s

 

I fell down

down a Rabbit Hole

through the sidewalk dreams

searching until one night

I’d wake up in screams

When you learn

That never never land

Isn’t as it seems

 

Maybe then 1am will seem kind

and I can drift off into the land where insomniacs don’t enter

I'm euthanized

Author's Note

Everything here is intentional