Warm

Feeling numb

I want to feel like I'm in an indie movie.

I want the over glamorized depression, the eyeliner, the emotion.

I've started relying on movies to make me feel... something.

But as soon as the credits roll, the darkness comes back.

Or rather, the feeling of...something just fades, 

Kind of like how in science class you learn that there is no such thing as cold,

There is only a lack of heat.

I know that living through indie movies is unrealistic, 

But I'm not really living through them, 

They just remind me of what it felt like to be warm. 

Reviews

[emipoemi]

I have no words...my voice is in my awe!! Well done!

[Mackenzie Knitter]

Thank you! :)

[emipoemi]

my pleasure.

[Onlyme]

Living via the lens of someone else perspective.ie the Indie Movies. Instead of living for oneself. Deep, heartfelt and so very sad. Makes you feel your suffering and your pain. camouflaged by the numbs you feel in general. To block it all out.

[Ardra]

mmm life sometimes takes the pleasure out of it and makes us want to find it in something so tht we can feel alive again... i completely understand the feeling you have explained in this poem

lack of warmth that is :)

[John the Baptist]

This is what is known as anhedonia, the inability to feel pleasure. I hope the speaker is on medication, because depression can kill. The poem reflects this state of mind very well.

[Mackenzie Knitter]

Thank you :)