May 10th/2016- SilenceA Chapter by Mackenzie KnitterJust feeling homesick.
On nights like these,
I would crawl out my window, and have a smoke on the roof. I would sit, anchored down by the shingles like sandpaper, I would sit and stare at the stars. I would stare, wide-eyed, hoping to capture as much as I could Before I had to blink, if only for a moment. I felt so free, so at peace. If I tried to crawl out my window now, I would fall 7 stories and splat on the sidewalk. Even though I'm living in the big city, doing what I love, I feel trapped. Maybe it's because I can't see the stars here. No matter how hard I try, Straining my eyes for just one glimmer, Just one speck of the life I once knew, I can't. As I stare up into a starless sky, My heart yearns for anything that will remind me of home. However, the thing that I'm straining, listening so hard for Is silence. It is a detailed silence, Like when the wind blows through the field in front of my house, I swear I can almost hear the individual blades of grass Bend and sway back into place. Or when I hear a dog bark in the distance, I can tell which one of my dogs it is, And whether it's barking at a horse or a bird, Because my dogs get really excited about birds. I think my heart just needs to retrain itself. Soon the muffled sound of cars driving and horns honking will be my new silence, Lulling me to sleep. Until then, unfortunately, I am awake, in the silence, Hearing everything, Trying so hard to hear nothing.
© 2016 Mackenzie KnitterAuthor's Note
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StatsAuthorMackenzie KnitterBurnaby, BRITISH COLUMBIA, CanadaAboutI just love to write and get my feelings out :) more..Writing
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