May 10th/2016- Silence

May 10th/2016- Silence

A Chapter by Mackenzie Knitter
"

Just feeling homesick.

"
On nights like these, 
I would crawl out my window, and have a smoke on the roof.
I would sit, anchored down by the shingles like sandpaper,
I would sit and stare at the stars.

I would stare, wide-eyed, hoping to capture as much as I could 
Before I had to blink, if only for a moment.
I felt so free, so at peace.

If I tried to crawl out my window now,
I would fall 7 stories and splat on the sidewalk.

Even though I'm living in the big city, doing what I love,
I feel trapped.

Maybe it's because I can't see the stars here.
No matter how hard I try, 
Straining my eyes  for just one glimmer,
Just one speck of the life I once knew, 
I can't.

As I stare up into a starless sky, 
My heart yearns for anything that will remind me of home.
However, the thing that I'm straining, listening so hard for
Is silence.

It is a detailed silence,
Like when the wind blows through the field in front of my house,
I swear I can almost hear the individual blades of grass
Bend and sway back into place.

Or when I hear a dog bark in the distance,
I can tell which one of my dogs it is,
And whether it's barking at a horse or a bird,
Because my dogs get really excited about birds.

I think my heart just needs to retrain itself.
Soon the muffled sound of cars driving and horns honking will be my new silence,
Lulling me to sleep. 

Until then, unfortunately,
I am awake, in the silence,
Hearing everything,
Trying so hard to hear nothing.


© 2016 Mackenzie Knitter


Author's Note

Mackenzie Knitter
It's got a bit of random humour in it that doesn't make sense, but I didn't want to edit myself, because this is kind of a diary, and that is something I would actually say. Idk, just feeling lonely tonight.

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Mackenzie Knitter
Mackenzie Knitter

Burnaby, BRITISH COLUMBIA, Canada



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