HerA Poem by Mackenzie KnitterThis poem is from a dark point in my life where I hid behind a smile because I hated myself, sorry if its a little dark.
I feel like I have forgotten myself.
It's as if i've lost the battle, my opponent laughs at me in the mirror, celebrating her victory over me. Her joyful smile is an outward reflection of the pain I feel inside. She really is beautiful, long blonde hair, sparkling green eyes, cherry lips. I reach towards her, my hands curling in the anticipation of grasping her porcelain throat. However, as I reach closer to the expectation, she wilts. The light disappears, taking with it the illusion until I'm left staring at myself in the mirror, With my hands wrapped around my throat. I see the echo of life in my eyes, now glazed with tears, as they threaten to overflow. My once cherry lips are stained crimson in my effort to suppress my voice, My tongue strains against my teeth, trying desperately to tell myself I need help. My hands tremble and I desperately gasp for air, filling my lungs with bittersweet guilt. I am a coward. I let go. I breathe in. I breathe out. I see her starting to form again, before my eyes I see my progress crumble. I hate her. I need her. I close my eyes. She is in my head. I open my eyes and she is back, a shield, a lie. She protects me from myself. I hate her. I need her. She smiles and I know my ugly secret is safe. It's funny how much a smile looks like a grimace. No one will ever know.
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4 Reviews Added on July 16, 2015 Last Updated on July 16, 2015 Tags: poem, depression, self harm, suicidal thoughts, trapped, darkness, disguised AuthorMackenzie KnitterBurnaby, BRITISH COLUMBIA, CanadaAboutI just love to write and get my feelings out :) more..Writing
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