It Only Hurts When I Laugh

Holding on to what was is human nature, moving on, is successful human nature. Pain is living, the moment you stop hurting is the moment you're dead. From the dull drawn out ache in your bones, to the sharp sting of steel. As long as it hurts, you know you're alive. But for me... it only hurts when I laugh. Because I'm reminded of all the joy you brought me, and how that's it. nothing more... I suppose the solution is to continue to laugh until I hurt all over, then I'm back alive right? I don't feel thats a good solution... and I don't feel like laughing. I feel like I always do, I feel like dying. I feel like not feeling wouldn't be so bad.

I seriously almost got hit by a car tonight in a parking lot, I was walking in an empty space when a car whipped around, and only stopped less than a foot from me. Part of me wishes it hadn't stopped. Part of me wishes I had died pinned against the burgundy SUV I was standing next to. Because then I wouldn't feel anymore. Because then I couldn't remember you...

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[HappyTaylor]

"I am told that this is life, and pain is just a simple compromise. So we can get what we want out of it."........ Don't die.... I wouldn't be able to live knowing that you're not here.....