Mithridatism

the practice of protecting oneself against a poison by gradually self-administering non-lethal amounts.

Its what I wanted.
Its where I lay.
but I sit now so haunted,
with so much more to say.
You've moved on, from something only I saw.
I don't know why I'd think differently,
perhaps it was just hope, perhaps that was my flaw.
I wanna talk it out, but your avoidance is apparent, admittedly.
Too little to long,
only I shall sing our song.

I can't stand what we have now,
you don't even seem to care...
Left behind, I just don't know how.
you just treat my affections with an awkward stare...
I don't know where I went wrong,
I thought I played my cards right.
I thought our love was strong...
but I learned I was so very wrong that night.
For years I waited... I waited as long as I could :'(
But you didn't seem to notice, you never really caught on.
if I could take the time back I would.
Because I only felt like a pawn.
Where I should have been king,
and that will always sting.