Through and Through

Not one part of me is happy anymore.
Nothing seems to be able to unlock the door.
so distant now I could never find my way back,
never again can I build reserves for that final attack.
just one long nothing awaits me,
perhaps this is my fate for eternity.
but one thing I do know through and through,
that I'm just not happy without you.

Life seems so distant so far,
I always fail now to reach the par.
Just one day after another,
no goal, no reason to bother.
my body aches from disrepair,
my heart still broken from despair.