Dear my best friend

Something I've been wanting to say for a while

Dear depression,
We go way back, I remember the first time we met
I was 7 years old, a pig tailed lover of books, who was
Teased because of the sneakers my mother could barley
Afford. The 2nd time we met was at a house party where
A stranger packed himself into my mouth. It was the first
Time I understood the word ugly. And found out my body
Belonged to an incurable disease. And again when I was
Sad, I said go away, and you would not, go away. But you
And you would not leave. You depression are my childhood
Friend. The midnight voices in my head, you said you had
All the answers, a slick tounge, got me sick. Got me suicide
Watched, got me blue happy pills, find the nearest ledge you
Said. Walk out you say, suspend you say, wouldn't I be happier
Dead yesterday. I cried enough again, naming myself sad girl.
Lonely has developed an authority. Where my thoughts are family
Always fussing about the wrong I've done. I learned that sadness is
From you. You tell me boys won't love me, but a fastened rope can.
You tell me lupus Is incredible can't have 7 children, can't be hospitalized
3 times in one year, and call that healing. You a contradiction, a house of
Lies. Sickness can do that, it can lie, it can claw. My sadness will not cease
It will not die. I am afraid to die, I am afraid to die. Depression is a house of
Teeth, it will write you into a story without testing it will kill you. Comb your
Mouth into a wilderness but done yourself extraordinary human to joy screaming.
You can not have me, I am not my past I am worthy of love I am worthy. I am forgiving
Myself for not being strong enough. I can tell you I do not now my father. I can tell you a best friends father molested me, I can tell you the number of men I've let crawl into my body. But I'd rather tell you I am letting go. I am letting failure go loneliness go, I will not give up. You will not silence me..Sincerely Kennedy..

Reviews

[itsnoteoin]

wow. this was really powerful. rung a few bells. thank you for sharing.

[KennedyGrace]

Thank you

[Nerf]

F**k, and I do apologize for the reaction but I'm saying it how it is and how I feel right now, this was good. It felt all to real, like I can relate with the pain and the struggle. I can feel it cut deep. This is a letter of hope though, of truth and the ability to be stronger and let go of the comfortable killer that hides behind the facade of being all you have when you feel like you have nothing. Its a journal entry into your soul and i'm so grateful for you sharing this. Really deep, raw write and very impactful

[KennedyGrace]

The errors are mostly because I typed this on my phone, and in a hurry on my way to work. I do apologize.

[Damien Thibodeaux]

How sad is your story....

Yes, it does have spelling and grammatical errors, but my college English professor used to say the content and quality of the idea, the write, is more important to being a writer than the errors within, which can always be corrected.

I hope this is fiction.. You certainly touch the heart of your readers.

[Coyote Poetry]

I liked the set-up and the letter. I liked the way you made depression come alive. I like the direct talks and thoughts toward the struggle. I liked the flow of thoughts leading to the very good ending. You did very well on a difficult topic. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Not here]

wow, once again you have a great knack for comparing feelings to real life things and doing so extremely efectively. that was an awesome piece of writing, and i can clearly see that youve been through a lot. great write kennedy.