Me and My twin: A love worth living for

i sit on the inner corner if my bed, head leaning against my bed post, staring off into space as silent tears roll down my face staining my shirt, as i think to myself, why me? why am i the one pegged to be the so called "screw up" when i haven't done anything wrong? as i think this i double over as shoulder wrenching sobs over take me as i silently wish i could just disappear into the bed sheets knowing this pain wont subside I take the blade from my pocket and slide it down my wrist mesmerized by the scarlet lines that appear after every cut tears fall into the wounds as i hover over them, the pain eases a little but doesn't go completely away wishing i could rid myself of this pain, i throw the blade across the room cursing my very existence and wishing my everything would just go away ignoring the pain in my chest I stand and take in my surroundings once again hoping when I leave this house tonight I wont be back I run out into the night chasing my memory of him packed light and barred for anything i race into the night not knowing what is to become of me or my family, not even knowing if they will even realize I'm gone or even care if they do i run and run as tears glide down my face I keep running farther and farther from the place I once called home not looking back and not caring if they realize I have left just running to get free of the pain that they have caused sobbing and breathless, i collapse, over taken by pain and sorrow wishing my life was different, wanting some kind of solace from this retched life that this world has bestowed on me reaching into my bag I pull out some rope and find I tall tree climbing high off the ground I tie the rope about to hang myself I see him run my way begging me not to jump I look at him as more tears slide down my face i grab the limb for balance staring at him asking y? as he looks up I notice the redness of his eyes as he says I am his world and he shouldn't have left in the first place   more tears flow down my face, looking skeptical, i ask him, how can i believe you? he stares into my eyes and whispers, "just so i can hear if you leave me, i will follow only to be with you knowing i was wrong in hurting you. still skeptical, i lower myself onto the ground keeping a firm grip on the rope. he wraps his arms around me tight, and looks into my eyes, and whispers, "everything will be alright."  holding him tight, i whisper, "i hope so and i will never ever let you go so long as i live." he smiles that smile i love so much, and thats when i know he is right. taking both his hands into mine, i kiss him long and passionatly, then, whispering into his ear i say, "run away with me, we can start a life of our own together. he smiles wider and whispers. "of course, i cant let them do this to you my love anymore will you marry me?"  smiling a wide, bright, love filled smile, i scream "yes!" wrapping my arms around his neck and kissing him with every fiber of my being.