Sneezing in PatagoniaA Poem by Ken e Bujold'new title, final revisions for one of the cornerstones of the upcoming collection. A sneak peak as it where.'It was never a question of availability, scarcity of options, or -- my being too much of a misanthrope, some mad monk too lost in the minutiae to countenance being hitched to a wagon. I lived in a city of appetites, a smorgasbord of whatever you want just ask for. There was no shortage of grocery stores, late night conveniences, crematory plots to dip a toe into. So why … if a hummingbird fluttered her wings in Patagonia should I imagine a buzzard circling a zebra in Nairobi? Having discovered the first law of thermodynamics was when energy passed in or out of a system the system’s internal mechanics were required to realign in sympathy to the new arrangement, that any prolonged estuation of the sensory glands necessitated a reconfiguration of the sentient function -- the second law of thermodynamics -- I’d opt to switch majors before the third law came up for discussion. Any notion of a romantic interlude having a long range forecast struck me as being a little too contingent on faith, a pig in the poke for folks too timid to risk a margin call, their own self-reliance. I was fine with being a general anesthetist, making the rounds of the local head shops, dumpster diving bargain bins for the brilliant bits of metaphorical mumblers, the odd pork pie, gin rummy, or on that rare occasion -- a welsh rabbit. I simply subscribed to the ancient ways: pick up a book, shout fire on your way through the produce section of your favorite popsicle parlor -- somebody was bound to hear the SOS call -- especially if you included dinner in the announcement. A decent bottle of red loosens lips -- or so the bible says. And I was content to follow in Marlow’s wake. I’d managed to cordon off the world. My self-contained spaces had no place for luggage. I ate standing up. All those crumbs Marquez had left behind, Malcolm’s sloe Quauhnahuac eruptions, more than satisfied my dietary needs. After forty -- absolved of the masturbatory condition -- the myocardial infarction of feeling anything for anyone was an ache I hardly bothered to register. Any thought that my thoughts could twine with someone other than my own never crossed my mind. How the black bileful streets emptied out into the dark harbor waters, the indeterminate design of the bilabial fricatives, akin to a congenital defect, were too much to twist my tongue around -- a bristling burr my poor indigent’s palate refused to swallow. While I could conjugate the verbs of three languages -- passé present futurae -- sight poets no one would ever read -- lay down a bunt while fiddling through Rome -- the inner workings of the combustible engine remained a mystery. And how I might internalize a V8 seemed too great an inquiry, a nuisance I never had time to initiate. Until, one spring morning, this little hummingbird alighted on my windowsill. Seemingly unperturbed by all the stems I’d left to wither there, she set about tidying a nest from all my moody contentions. For months on end, her persistent melody fluttered about my pigeoned panes, insistent I take notice of her peculiar obsession -- how heavenly a dawn might break against the eyelids, if one would only draw back the shades … and I began to sense something stirring. Time, suddenly unsuspended, became my peculiar obsession … waiting to hear her tap, tap tap, tapping -- the new imperative of a watch being set to a whole other way of keeping track of where I was, like a lock being picked, some slow circling groove, cylinders tumbling into place, as the unheard before beat of the Charlies improvisation … And I was hip at last, to Nernst’s last great postulate, the third law. When desire beats a hart’s crucible, want makes for a perpetual motion -- emotion … and the inertia of a book the kindling of a solitary man. Impossible now, not to think -- it was ever a question or option … when Patagonia sneezes Nairobi feels the breeze. Ken e Bujold
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6 Reviews Added on February 28, 2023 Last Updated on February 28, 2023 AuthorKen e BujoldSomewhere in Ontario, CanadaAboutWriters write, it's what we do. Fish swim, woodpeckers peck... writers scribble (inside and outside the lines). more..Writing
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