Dear Matthew

Extremely personal new song.

V1.

I'm still not sure what I stand for

 

Dear pillow,

I'm sorry for the tears

It's easy to say I won't cry

It's not as easy to hold back how I feel

 

I'm always afraid you'll go back

to forgetting on purpose

Honestly, I never really thought I was worth it

 

Bridge:

It's so hard to let go of the Matthew I know

Or should I say once knew,

boy, what happened to you?

 

Chorus:

I don't know what I am to you,

am I invisible?

Am I worth the dirt road you walk on?

Or am I someone to talk to?

 

Am I hopeless, annoying, ugly, depressing,

what made you want to walk away?

 

Do I complain too much, talk too much,

ask too many questions? Or did you never feel the same?

 

I don't need an answer

I just want you to understand

I don't need your pity

I just want to see you again

 

V2.

Dear love,

I'm sorry I wasn't enough,

but I really miss you

and I hope you don't think this message is sob stuff

 

I'm always afraid you'll go back

to ignoring me and lying

Honestly, it hurts me that you thought I wasn't dying

 

Bridge:

It's so hard to let go of the sweetheart I know,

or should I say I once knew,

sir, I miss you

 

(Back to chorus)

Author's Note

Do not use my song or pic!