I'm not enough.

A Poem by Kelsie

Fighting with a lover, little hope.

She has no hope
For us to last.
It hurts me
As I work so hard
To keep what I love existing.
And she doesn't believe what I say about her.
I screwed up.
I ruined us.
I should have disappeared before this happened.
I fight so hard
Out of love for her.
And she doesn't believe in us.
It makes my heart ache
That she can't believe me,
Maybe,
Just maybe,
She doesn't love me.
I'm not enough.
She stays with me out of pity
For my poor broken soul.
Just maybe
That's why she doesn't believe in us.
I feel so much for her
And she acts like she feels nothing.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I'm not enough.
I'm sorry you don't believe me.
I'm sorry that I love you,
But you can't love me,
My princess.
I'll never be enough
I've never been enough.
I'm not stunning
Or beautiful
Or even pretty anymore
And I definitely
Am not
Enough.
All I do is fight.
I wake up every day,
Want her,
But she never wants me.
Because I am not enough.
Im just a screw up
That ruins Everything
She touches.
She wants to take things slow,
I agree,
She thinks I don't want her.
She wants an emotional relationship,
I agree,
She thinks I don't want physical things with her.
All I know,
Is I'm not enough,
Otherwise she believe in us.
Believe in me.