Quiet Reflection

quiet reflection
it's not so quiet
my thoughts are loud
my soul is screaming
as my heart is breaking

questions run over and over
in my mind as i search for
answers i cannot find
why? that's the biggest one
somebody help me because
i've come undone

each day i wake
wishing i had not
sleep comes in fits
pain never goes
i'm dying inside
on the outside
it's starting to show

i'm tired of crying
yet its all i can do
i don't understand
i never would have
done this to you

i want the pain to end
there's only one way
i know how to end it
that would be selfish of me
but you don't seem to have
a problem with being selfish

promises made
promises broken
a life is ruined
another one is not
i am a failure
a horrible person

i miss your smile
i miss your laugh
the sound of your voice
the touch of your hand
i miss your goofiness
you could always make me laugh
i miss holding you at night
your beautiful scent
making love to you
was always amazing

i can't do this anymore
this thing called life
it's too much to bear
it cuts like a knife
heaven help me