Played A Fool

your words came through loud and clear
but the meaning behind them remains a mystery
the words reverberate through my brain
beating like a steel drum they seep into my heart and soul
i feel like i've been played a fool
but i guess that is my own fault as well
i do not know where to go from here
i have come to a crossroad
my heart is pounding
the tears are flowing
i cannot undo what's already been done
i cannot unspeak the words that have been spoken
i cannot continue on this way
i need to stop thinking
i need to stop feeling
i need to forget everything about you
i need to stop crying
i need to stop hurting all the time
i am a strong person
why do i allow you to affect me this way?
why do i allow you to be my only thought?
why do i allow you to continue to rip my heart to shreds?
why can't i just sleep and not think of you?
why can't i be the one that you want?
why can't i stop loving you?
why am i allowing myself to have false hope?
why don't i just throw in the towel?
we both know that's what you want
why do i allow myself to have hope because of things that you've said?
why do i allow myself to be afraid because of things that you've said?
i am so done....i am so tired....i've just had it.