FeeCF

A poem depicting my painful breakup with my ex Fiancee a few years ago and my attempts to capture the positive moments and takeaways in the ensuing weeks/months after that.

I'm pouring my heart out to you one last time
It seems like only yesterday you were mine
And yet, it seems so long ago it could be another life
I wake up and wonder, am I dreaming
Did you not say you would love to be my wife
Times now are so strange. I sit and ponder the meaning
I've never been the best at controlling my feelings
and... maybe that's why I couldn't understand what you were feeling
But lady I tried. I promise you... with all my heart I did
Your love was up for auction... I guess I lost the bid
It's so easy to point and blame, but I am the victim of my deeds
Stubborn and confused, numerous warnings I chose not to heed
Now here I sit, comforted by silence, writing words you'll never see
Do you, do you ever still think about me... Fee
Was our time together a passing dream? Was I merely asleep
I mean, I mean if this is being awake then I tell you, being awake sucks
My heart's been used for target practice and I'm a sitting duck
Lump me in the nice guy group cos someone else gets all the luck
If I had a dollar for every heartbreak, I'd be sitting on a million bucks
It's funny how this has all played out
Some days I'm calm and then there's days I wanna scream out loud
Since our scene is ended then I shall gladly take a bow
I sincerely pray you become a lady of which you and all can be proud
I smile when my heart floods with memories of places, sights and sounds
You said you had a few triggers and now you've left me plenty
a reminder of us going from friends to lovers and then to enemies
I can't say that I'll live the rest of my life with regrets
for our rise and downfall, we were both architects
And no it's not self-blame, merely lessons I'll never forget

Stories saved for the next generation I'll hopefully one day beget

I have... secretly, knowingly and unknowingly held on
Even as I lay the memory of you to rest, my head and heart are torn
and while I grieve that our time has come and gone
I have to, I must say... I will say... "See you later heartbeat and so long."
It's time to move on, my ears caressed by the tunes of our swan song
You... you once told me, "Don't ever say I never gave you anything"
I couldn't agree more... and I want to say so... many... many... things
Sometimes I laugh and find it the funniest thing
that through the hurt and the pain I yet wouldn't change a thing
if only to always have that special moment
a flash in the pan or was it a shooting comet
And how to describe it... I have no words or comments
and... there are none needed
All I can say is thank you, thank you, thank you...
for giving me a chance to experience a love so true
and I'll never ever forget you... not you...

Author's Note

Your reviews on this will be much much appreciated

Reviews

[Pushkar Prabhat]

Awesome!!!!
WoW this flows like thoughts and rhyme like a song......
effortless witty clever write.....
i loved it.....!!!
:)

[KelWriter]

hey bro. Thanks for the review. Yeah it was like a farewell song rolled of my heart unto the paper when I wrote this poem. Tough period for me. I'm glad it produced something creative to share

[Pushkar Prabhat]

most amazing universes(read works) begin with a big bang(read pain)........glad that period is over.........you are welcome!!! :) :)

[KelWriter]

wow thanks. I will keep this quote!

[Pushkar Prabhat]

hehe sure!!! :) :)