Keep Waiting...

I scream out a name

a name I have no knowledge of...

my heart is full of love for this name

my mind tells me it knows the name very well

and yet...

I have no knowledge of this name I call

I reject all forms of help-

this name I believe in will be my saviour

I look down upon the love that has been protecting me-

this name will love me perfectly

I keep waiting for this name to hear my call

keep waiting in anguish

people come in my life... but they do not bare this name

I don't know this name, but I know it's not them

once I know the name, my life will be complete

once I know the name, I will know my reason to live

once I know...

who am I waiting for?

what am I waiting for?

I've been waiting for something for so long

I cant remember what I wait for but,

it must be something special...

or was I just waiting for something ordinary?

will you show me what I've been waiting for?

all I remember is the pain I bring

is whatever I wait for truly worth the wait?

am I even worth what I am waiting for?

who...am I?

what is my reason for living?

do I keep living for someone else?

I can't remember what my purpose of living is

I can't remember what I am waiting for...

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

This one has a spiritual sound to it, though it's hard to tell if it pertains to a particular faith. The "name" so often mentioned seems to have some of the qualities attributed to God, though that word is never used. The last verses seem to veer away from this possibility, having a sort of existentialist quality, maybe even nihilist. In the end, it appears we are left to make up our own minds as to the meaning of it all. But of course, that's the way it is with life.

[𝔸ʂɾıéli໐ຖ Ş໐นl]

this is by far my fav review- i try to make my poetry seen from different views, im glad you noticed

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

yes i can relate to your last line well, cant recall a lot, so yes thanks for this great poem into my poetry competition