Date with the needle

Take a deep breath before you start reading so the music can kick in.

Date with a needle (a different kind of love story)

Lately, I've stared into the void

The darkness in life is all too bright

Everything I've built now destroyed

How does a mother continue to fight this fight?

 

Welcome to the green mile

A cemetery for the living just waiting to die

Another outcast, another exile

Struggling to find a way to say goodbye

 

I just want you to know my child

Tomorrow, I have a date with a needle
so when you grow up confused and riled

Today, I would like to apologize to you of all people

 

 

Dear Leo,

Its mom

I love you son

I know you're hurting

But it's alright

I'll watch out for you

Tuck you in every night

You're probably too small to understand

But someday you'll be an understanding man

I would like you to know mommy's innocent

The drugs I carried in, were to pay rent

Drugs lead me to an early death

A haunting reality I'm dealing with

Become the man I dreamt you would

An honest man, a man that stands for good

Baby time is running out

It's too late to get my life sorted out

But Leo don't you worry, not one bit

Just be good and learn to live with it

You'll be okay

You'll always find your way

And even now when my time is up

Just know mommy's smiling, she hasn't given up

Baby, I'll always be your mom

Never will I forget you son

The last meal arrives

My tears continue to drop

For justice will claim lives 

Until the drug trade stops

 

The last rights read

I have a smile on my face

I’m soon to be dead

But I remember your embrace

My hands clasped tight

The needle penetrates my skin

I can feel my lungs put up a fight

But the lethal chemicals win

 

Final breath close

Am I still alive?

Leo's cute nose

Time of death: 12:45

 

 

Author's Note

just an idea I got this afternoon, any feedback appreciated

Reviews

You're touched by something higher my friend. This is so perfect, and well written, in feeling, in touch, in element, in story telling, in bringing over the daily news, almost, of how hard life can be, and how real the facts are. You left me reading, feeling, and pausing here many times, an emotional lump in my throat, of beauty, of pureness, I can't describe. Some poets are bringing it over, but you really touch... I'm in awe of your talents, and skill with this one, (a hard one to write about). But this happens in life. I feel you're a invisible journalist of purity, this was utterly fantastic. If you could see my arms right now, they have goosebumps. (happens not often).

Thank you for being the man and poet you are, and for sharing your mind/thoughts, with us all.

- Elisa

[LA Lorena]

A most touching and sad write Keegan. You did a great job with this. The only thing I would change would be the choice of the last meal. Sloppy joes and chilli fries???? Ugh. I get heartburn just thinking about it.

[KeeD]

Thank you so much for reviewing, I agree with you it's unhealthy food but at the time where that doesn't matter anymore most people crave what they found tasty as children as their last meal.

[N!LoC]

.... :-(

[KeeD]

thank you for reviewing :) hope you liked it

[N!LoC]

i liked it... but it made me sad... hence the :-(

[Baby Ricochet]

Heavy. I had a friend that was a heroin addict. She described heroin as " a warm wonderful blanket of perfect " and the first time she shot up was liked being "fucked by God " She was 19 years old, smart and beautiful but I'm convinced she was born to be a drug addict. I've not seen her in some time. I couldn't stand watching her throw her life away and she was getting to me on an emotional level that was dangerous for the type of relationship wehad

[Baby Ricochet]

I have no idea what became of her and I'm not so sure I want to know

[KeeD]

Let's just hope she's okay and has figured a way to change her life, I totally understand the relation from the poem to your story though, it's difficult to understand what the drug means to an addict for we're not in their shoes and they see it as a cure to everything else thats fucked up whiles we see it as the terrible truth that it is. A temporary fix, fixes nothing. Thanks for reviewing baby ric, much respect

[KMadden]

I almost cried reading this poem. It's really amazing and heartbreaking at the same time.

[KeeD]

Wow @_@ getting someone to tear up reading my piece is far greater than I ever imagined or expected at least as far as my writing capability goes. Thank you thank you thank you for the wonderful review

[Hey Hey Renee]

This evokes an emotion in me that is not quite sadness, I don't think, but something deeper than that. The letter killed me entirely. I was covered in goosebumps and reading it just made my fingers curl. Though this isn't a subject that many would choose to write on, you did it so beautifully and so amazingly. Really loved this(:

[KeeD]

I'm totally shocked at the reaction this piece is getting it was like just a random idea that struck me this afternoon :D I'm beyond excited that it evoked such emotion. Thank you so much for reviewing

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Wow! This is so AH-MAZING, the poem as well as the music.
And sad. I got tears in my eyes.

WHAT A POEM.
#speechless #amazed

[KeeD]

wow, wow, wow, wow :D "blushes" xD i'm all smiles
#flattered

[Eve]

Whoa. This is wonderfully written. I love this, it has so much emotion. Wonderfully written.

[KeeD]

thank you so much :D !

[Eve]

Your welcome! :D

[icelandicblue]

This is extremely visceral. It speaks of profound tragedy and lives and families destroyed. It reminded me of the song Renegade by Styx. This was powerful, deep and extremely effective.

[KeeD]

Thank you so much for the kind review, send me a read request of your work sometime would love to repay the kindness

[icelandicblue]

Oh, thank you. I will.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Wow!! I can't believe how wonderful this is and so, so sad, brought tears to my eyes. This is nothing more than brilliant.

[KeeD]

Wow, thank you I didn't know something that I would write could ever have that effect on anyone. xoxo Thank you < 3

[Carolann Dowsett]

Your more than welcome. Seriously it's wonderful and heart wrenching. xx

[cognitivetatum]

Chills. You have an amazing way of grabbing onto perception and putting it into words. The real essence of writing...Very Nice...

[KeeD]

wow thank you that's such a great compliment, my cheek bones hurt from smiling now :D Thank you!