Saving Me

I read about a lot of people hurting themselves to numb the pain, so this is how I cope with the pain in my life, by writing, being creative.

Salt my wounds

And throw me away

For I'm just human

And so I decay

 

My hearts soaked with bitterness

The stains won't come out

My mind is unclean

Filled with depression and doubt

 

Lost all hope in humanity

Lonely I stay

my soul pleads insanity

 

 

Just another day.

In the obvious life of a teen

I resort to addictions

Euphoric dreams

 

Am I helping myself?

 

The answer is yes

Cause if it was that easy

We would never be depressed

 

If pain is the cure that I seek

Then it is I who is weak.

For pain is what I'm running from

Pain is what has been making me numb

 

The urge to cause infliction

Has only left me with a greater infection

Believing in no one, everything's fake

Is the only way I'm even able to stay awake

 

So do I have it all figured out,

Am I going to scream and shout?

Hurt myself constantly

Or should I believe in a better me

 

Someone stronger than this

Someone who knows this addiction can be dismissed

I am the cure to my own infliction

For I cannot be the cause of my own extinction

 

 

 

 

Author's Note

( We all hurt, We all F%ck up, We all need our release, But don't let the release hurt you anymore than you already hurt. Temporary fixes, fix nothing. I am no one to help you, but I read this and it helps me,
and if I can help myself maybe you can create something, find a way, an outlet besides addiction to help you ) Stay strong, Kee.

Reviews

[Stonz P.]

I was reading, reading, wondering how very recently I was coping with a haunting week, curbing my urges to harm myself, and the worst was how it was not related to me but for someone I deeply care about. Their pain was agonizing to me, I wished to be free but patience and hope paid off... Ah, we Indians are so f*****g sentimental when it comes to love... The poem is universal but maybe I relate to it is what makes it very Indian to me.

And the last 2 lines is the hope I'm talking about.
I wish I had read it earlier might have saved me from a deep depression.
Kudos Keegan.

[KeeD]

Thank you so much, I hope you get through whatever you need to get through and find inspiration, motivation and the will to be happy. Your friend, always. Kee.

[KAOlmsted]

This is the perfect anthem for teenage angst...I'm being serious here. I was never a cutter, I don't understand the attraction, but I understand the pain of being young and "misunderstood" and writing it all out...I like the flow of this piece, as well as the message. It's not just a bunch of wailing, it shows honest emotion in a concise format that is easy to read and relate to. The 8th stanza says it best. The pain is what you're running from, so why inflict more? Really great write, Keegan...thank you so much for sharing this with us, and I hope somebody, somewhere, reads this and stops cutting.

-kimmer

[KeeD]

I've never been a cutter too, I just understand that these days a lof of kinds go through way to much of pain in the early years of their life that they don't know how to deal with. I myself have been through a fair share and although i'm mature enough to understand the consequences of self mutilation/harm, I shell myself, keep myself from the world, make my life suffer in alternate ways than self hurt so I really want to share the sentiment that they're not alone, everybody hurts but this is how I deal with it, by writing.

[KeeD]

and I hope they can find a way to deal with it, and move on with their lifes too, I appreciate your writing and this review so much, I have immense respect for you and your work, and i'm extremely grateful for your kind review. I hope that too, that somewhere, someone can read this and stop, figure out a way to make their life better. Writing has done that for me.

[KAOlmsted]

I honestly don't know where I would be if not for writing. Thank you, Keegan; I will treasure those words. I have much respect for you and your work, as well.

[}Echo{]

I really like this. It has a lot of emotion and feeling it it.. Wonderful write and flow... I like it... Very nice...

[KeeD]

It is the pillar of my life, when I feel like my structure is broken and I just want to come crashing down, I read this, I feel I have something more to do in life, something greater, there's more than pain that awaits me in this life and so I keep moving along. It keeps me sane, everyone needs that reminder that they are important to themselves. Thank you for the great review.

[}Echo{]

It's good you have something to go back to to let you know you have a reason to live... Thanks for writing this.

[Frieda P]

I have battled my share of addictions, this is a brutally honest of what it feels like, a quick fix is so much easier but you're right we're only destroying ourselves further by doing so...very enlightening and moving read. Thanks Kee.

[KeeD]

We all have demons we deal with everyday, its only the brave who wear these demons and hearts on their sleeves. Thank you for the amazing review. I'll be sure to check out your work and repay the kindness.

[ms. barrie]

i agree, this is deeply profound, vivid imagery capturing the hopelessness, helplessness we all feel at one time or another. yet afraid to call out for help for fear of being judged and rejected, thus causing more hurt, more pain...so some bury it deep within themselves until their only release is heed the call of self-harm and to "numb the pain" -- brilliant write!! thanks for your review of The Raven and The Lovers :)

[KeeD]

anytime I love your work, and I appreciate your reviews so much. :)!

[ms. barrie]

thank you so much...coming from you that really means a lot...and i as well deeply appreciate your reviews as well! (smiley hearts)

[ms. barrie]

ha..oops, and you're quite welcome!

[KeeD]

;3

[Ruth]

Profound :)
We can only search for our own inner light, no-one else can do it for us...and yet, there is such a thing called empathy, this shows it :)

[KeeD]

Thank you, I appreciate the review back :3 I'm a fan of your work, hope to read some of your other writes soon, xx.

[Ruth]

Most welcome :)

[Kimi]

I really enjoyed this... it kept me wanting to read the next line to find out what you had to say next...and the bolding of certain parts really emphasized your message...pain is very real and unfortunately not easy to escape... but it makes us real... good luck to you and keep writing if that's what your heart tells you to do. :)

[KeeD]

thank you for the really kind review. I love your work btw, great writes.

[Bluefire]

A very creative poem, I love the wordchoice that fits well with the timeing of the rhyme and flow of the poem, I also love how it is written and the message it conveys.
Well done! ^^

[KeeD]

Thank you, if anyone can get a better perspective of life through this than I guess I accomplished something, no matter how small

[Bluefire]

No problem. ^^

[~SouthernGirl~]

I really like this. I know what it's like to turn to hurting yourself on the outside to numb the pain on the inside, so... yeah... This is a really good poem, and has a lot of inspiration... Beautiful write..

[KeeD]

Thank you ! xx

[~SouthernGirl~]

:)

[Shruti Das]

I love this poem. It's very deep. I especially liked the way you ended it with a hopeful note. :)

[KeeD]

Thanks Shrew. A fellow Indian, can't wait to read your work and hope you had a wonderful Christmas, compliments of the season.

[Shruti Das]

Hi. :D Merry Christmas to you too.

[~SouthernGirl~]

:) Happy New Year :)

[KeeD]

Happy New Years, hope you had an amazing New years eve.. and wish you all the success love and happiness 2013 has to offer. xoxo