Saving Me

I read about a lot of people hurting themselves to numb the pain, so this is how I cope with the pain in my life, by writing, being creative.

Salt my wounds

And throw me away

For I'm just human

And so I decay

 

My hearts soaked with bitterness

The stains won't come out

My mind is unclean

Filled with depression and doubt

 

Lost all hope in humanity

Lonely I stay

my soul pleads insanity

 

 

Just another day.

In the obvious life of a teen

I resort to addictions

Euphoric dreams

 

Am I helping myself?

 

The answer is yes

Cause if it was that easy

We would never be depressed

 

If pain is the cure that I seek

Then it is I who is weak.

For pain is what I'm running from

Pain is what has been making me numb

 

The urge to cause infliction

Has only left me with a greater infection

Believing in no one, everything's fake

Is the only way I'm even able to stay awake

 

So do I have it all figured out,

Am I going to scream and shout?

Hurt myself constantly

Or should I believe in a better me

 

Someone stronger than this

Someone who knows this addiction can be dismissed

I am the cure to my own infliction

For I cannot be the cause of my own extinction

 

 

 

 

Author's Note

( We all hurt, We all F%ck up, We all need our release, But don't let the release hurt you anymore than you already hurt. Temporary fixes, fix nothing. I am no one to help you, but I read this and it helps me,
and if I can help myself maybe you can create something, find a way, an outlet besides addiction to help you ) Stay strong, Kee.

Reviews

[Stonz P.]

I was reading, reading, wondering how very recently I was coping with a haunting week, curbing my urges to harm myself, and the worst was how it was not related to me but for someone I deeply care about. Their pain was agonizing to me, I wished to be free but patience and hope paid off... Ah, we Indians are so f*****g sentimental when it comes to love... The poem is universal but maybe I relate to it is what makes it very Indian to me.

And the last 2 lines is the hope I'm talking about.
I wish I had read it earlier might have saved me from a deep depression.
Kudos Keegan.

[KeeD]

Thank you so much, I hope you get through whatever you need to get through and find inspiration, motivation and the will to be happy. Your friend, always. Kee.

[KatDarkness]

beautiful poem, very relatable.

[Bella]

Wow... absolutely powerful. The last two lines spoke to me the most "I am the cure to my own infliction
For I cannot be the cause of my own extinction"
That is so true. Amazingly done. Great Job :)

[KeeD]

yeah it's so similar to what you wrote :D that's why I immediately loved your piece

[Bella]

Thank you lol I write a lot about struggles I face on a day to day basis. It's what keeps them real. I can't write something if it doesn't relate to me.

[Bella]

I like how this was from the heart. That's what makes a poem enjoyable

[Sarah Redigan]

Love this ... anyone can relate to this

[KeeD]

Thank you!

[Sarah Redigan]

Youre welcome dear

[NaugleB]

I love what you have done here. I read this about 5 times, just letting it all sink in. You did a really good job here, and as mentioned by PeterB those last two lines were just brilliant. Keep up the good work, and thank you for this I wish more people were as open and able to be honest with themselves like this.

[KeeD]

thank you so much, i love your hair haha :)

[Love Well Spent]

Oh wow, this is an amazing poem! So powerful... I really enjoyed reading this . Thanks for sharing . :)

[KeeD]

Thank you, have a great 2013.

[Eric Cox]

Cool job on this. Climbing out of depression is hard, hurting oneself to do it is tragic. I like your thoughtful words penned in a cool way.

[KeeD]

Thank you so much Eric!

[Eric Cox]

welcome

[Carolann Dowsett]

This is beautiful, such honesty in raw pain and the need to destroy self in the urgent need to escape pain inflicted on us by a cruel and heartless world. I love it.

[KeeD]

Thank you so much, writing makes me believe in a better me. What's your inspiration? - Kee.

[Carolann Dowsett]

Keep writing your awesome. My inspiration is a life filled with pain and suffering mixed with hope and faith. I live with a clear vision of two distinct worlds. This world of darkness and despair that we live in now and a new world that lies beyond the curtain of death that is filled with love, hope, peace, joy, surrender. When I write I travel between these two worlds, it is a joy to be carried away for a time and a disappointment when my feet fall firmly on the ground again :)

[KeeD]

Well said, wow you really make us want to fly and experience life through your eyes through your work. A true artist, lots of respect for you. xoxo - Kee

[Carolann Dowsett]

Thank you so much you encourage me to keep going. xx

[Bronwen Cox Hollinger]

This is exactly how I deal with anything and everything in my life when I need some sort of therapy. I write. Lots of people read but the thing is that you can't help what happens in a story like you can't help what happens in your own life at times. Thus when I feel as if I cannot prevent something from happening in the world around me, I write because it's the one story that I have the power to determine everything that ends up happening in the end. Secretly when I write historical fiction my character is me. That way I can experiment with the end result of my actions without actually having to live through them. It stops me from taking things out on other people around me. I don't know if that makes any sense XD

[KeeD]

It makes perfect sense, and its the perfect escape from reality and pain. So much better than harming yourself, writing in fact can have so many positive aspects in your life. Wow :D I'm so glad you posted this comment I hope some young beautiful tortured soul who reads this and then reads your comment gets an understand of an alternate way to feel relief < 3 thank you for sharing and reviewing

[Bronwen Cox Hollinger]

Of course, darling!

[kublakhan27]

I think Kimmer summed it up best...definitely an anthemic piece and the rhymes flow nicely as well...well done.

[KeeD]

Thank you so much, I'll be sure to repay the favor and check out your work.

[kublakhan27]

You're very welcome, I would appreciate that^^