How I Feel

Frustrated, cold, empty, alone
Dark, plain, never the same, showed up late and forfeited the game
Hated, loved, debating hell
Praying, wishing, flicking coins in the wishing well
Red lights, emotions gone, true fright
Ready, set, go, still losing the fight to choose right
New days turn into new nights, a sleepless mind spinning but my screws tight
Scared, confident, precarious and on top of it
Embarrassed, numb, still racing even though I lost it
Competition failed, finish line-never crossed it
Dignity, tossed it
Disintegrating knowledge, college not an option, f**k the logic, the roof has already fallen
Forgiving, spent, straight forward backing towards the fence
Trapped, helpless, shelf-this hell-bent selfless regret
Humble, soft, calloused heart, fun
Departed, gone, fostered a father by imagining one
Mis-lead, unguided, abiding by only my wants
Selfish, careless, careful while my ghost haunts
Drowning, tired, struggling, begging
Holding my breath, love is forever and pain never ending
Bottled up, rarely explode
Failure in my veins, success in my bones
Rock bottom, empty glass, insufficient funds, empty hands
Everyday I miss her, absent by resent,
She's so beautiful even though it was never meant, We both know she was heaven-sent
Shy, loud, habitual lying standing its ground
Charismatic, addictive in nature
Shattered glass, crumpled paper
1/2 real, 100% classic
Leave you mad, surprised I passed it
Hooked on laughs with a contradictive habit

No one's perfect and certainly not me
Intentions are resting while my demons constantly work to hurt, destroy, and flirt with destiny
It's getting the best of me, testing relentlessly, messing with my treasure chest, buried deep beneath the giving tree
And here I sit, watching, waiting as the storm slowly rolls close to me
Drops of pain begin soaking me
Legs of lead hold me ferociously
Screaming so loud


"Who am I suppose to be"?

Author's Note

Grammar and punctuation

Reviews

[Annie S]

Your rhyming is exceptional! omg .. really love your emotions. This is also a great way of expressing how you feel. I can totally relate to this
Really enjoyed this Keaton! :)

[KeatonLouis]

Thank you very much. Everyone has pain and I am learning that writing has helped me cope. I love your support and comments Annie. Namaste

[Annie S]

you're welcome :)

[J. Kell]

Excellent poem, I think many young people of our generation feel like this and you articulated it beautifully. I love the way the rhyme is throughout and builds up to the end.

[KeatonLouis]

Thank you Justin. I forever appreciate your feedback. Sometimes writing about your darkness sheds your light

[J. Kell]

Your welcome i completely agree.

[Laminators Dubai]

dame!
you work so fast and sassy...
i enjoyed....
thanks for sharing this thoughtful and 1/2 cool & 1/2 rhyme