A Lover's Note - Broken

Wow, I can't believe I'm actually doing this. I hope I get all the words to come across the way I intend. I also hope you can read my horrific handwriting... Of all the days for us to break up I'm glad we did today. Somehow I knew this tragedy was coming and I prepared the best I could. I've been looking at pictures of us, reflecting back on our brief relationship. I'm sorry we didn't do a lot other than sitting in my basement watching movies but those days we did were some of the best days of my life. I especially remember the emotions you made me feel. Happiness, love, exhaustion, sadness, loneliness... I remember all the bad times but I wouldn't trade any of them for a happy memory with someone else. When it rained my days were still sunny because I had you. I also loved our seldom trips to Weber. God, it was a lot of fun rolling around on that hill "conserving the blanket" and trying to protect ourselves from the mosquitos. I loved when we'd talk about music and I still remember when you first introduced me to Sleeping at Last. I still listen to them to this day and it's hard not to think of you when one of their songs comes on. Ugh, take me back to summer. Take me back to late night conversations. Take me back so I can redo this all and make it right. You don't know how much I regret the hell I out you through.. It pains me, how could I proclaim to love you but last year I treated you like s**t. But you never stopped loving me. I admire you so very much. Late at night when I'd wake up from a bad dream, I didn't text but I knew I could've. You're reliable and caring. You made me feel loved like no one ever has and I doubt anyone will. You're irreplaceable and that's the beautiful part about this. I know you are the girl for me. I may not be the guy for you but atleast now I know my faults and how bad I really did screw up. I'll spend the rest of my days missing those five months we were dating.. But maybe in time those will circle back around and turn in to years that we can be together. Years that I can repay you. Yes, I still plan on being your friend.. Even best friend if you'd allow it. I want to see you happy. I want to see you be successful and accomplish all that you aspire. I want you to know that these few words that I've written you don't give you enough credit. There's so much I'd still like to say but a love letter or whatever you'd consider this is not the place. I need you to know that all that truly matters to me is you. You are loved.
Sincerely with all the love my soul has to offer, Keenan.