One Reason

My campaign against suicide

Drowning in the ocean of depression,

I'm filled with the fear of living on.

I'm losing my strength, I'm losing my words,

I'm losing the confidence that keeps me up.

Anxiety in its heaviness fill my mind.

Hope become nothing but a story line.

The future is blank with no assurance,

And I'm dying slowly deep in my heart.

Why is it that life is so harsh on me?

Why is it that nobody loves me?

Why am I born in the first place?

Why can't I just die to free this pain?

I've had enough of this feeling,

I'm getting drunk with these thought.

Why do I have to keep on living

in this dark, scary and lonely world?

I'll rather die and get rid of this,

I'll rather say goodbye to this old me.

Let me go, Let me die in peace.

Let the heavenly host please receive me.

But shouldn't I wait a moment?

Shouldn't I carefully have a rethink?

That there's something I'm born to be;

That I'm not the worst man living.

Though death could keep me out of life,

But doesn't help me achieve anything.

I think if I have a billion of reasons to die,

I should at least have one reason to stay alive.

Author's Note

I've been in this kind of situation and I know how it feels but death isn't the solution.
Suicide is more rampant nowadays and I'm wrote this to campaign against it.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Oldest and the best wisdom I learn. If we assist one life. We had a worthwhile life. If we helped many, we will know peace.
"Though death could keep me out of life,
But doesn't help me achieve anything.
I think if I have a billion of reasons to die,
I should at least have one reason to stay alive."
The above lines, I toil with and I know. Life is opportunity and death is the ending. I hope you are doing okay. Be safe and thank you my friend for sharing the amazing poetry.
Coyote

[John the Baptist]

If I were still a mental health emergency prescreener, I would seriously consider having the speaker hospitalized after the first five verses. I have heard this kind of talk from suicidal people before. The last two verses, though, demonstrate the individual has not gone over the edge and is still capable of rational thinking. At this time of trouble all over the world, people need to keep watch over their thoughts and seek help if they feel themselves slipping.

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Thank you so much for your wonderful review, John.
Have a great time.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

and one reason is all you really need, and yes, there is no assurance of anything, except that we
must weather the storms of life...and know there will be sunshine in the end.
j.

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Thank you for your point of view sir.
You saw it all.

[Kari Rakitan]

This is a powerful poem. The part about going to Heaven was the most interesting to me. Everyone has a different way of imagining Heaven, but I know many Christians teach that people who commit suicide don't go to Heaven because they disrespected God by cutting their lives short. It is the ultimate insult to our creator to take this gift of life and end it before He (or She if you prefer to think of Her that way) says our work here is done.

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Thank you for having a take on this, Kari.
I'm glad you found it meaningful.

[barleygirl]

I volunteered on a Suicide Prevention Hotline for 2 years & I'm very familiar with wanting to help people NOT see suicide as a good solution to problems. We all have problems. Suicide is a perception problem, as you've shown in your poem. Some people find a tough path to be a challenge, whereas other people want to escape the toughness of living. I'm not sure you've caught the essence of how it sounds when a person feels suicidal (which I've felt a great deal of my life). I don't think people who are suicidal do much questioning, even tho I love the questioning that you put into your poem & it feels like what non-suicidal people wonder when they are facing difficulties. I believe depression is the cause of most suicide & depression is not a "thinking" situation . . . it's a mind blot that just feels like a heavy dark weight upon one's soul. I don't believe you can reason with a suicidal person. Before answering the suicide hotline, we were taught to meet the person where they are & not try to cheer them up or reason with them becuz that can feel offensive when a person feels like a blank blob of hopeless nothingness. Sometimes just sitting with a person in their yukkiness can be more helpful than trying to pull them to a different place. Just being understood can be amazingly rejuvenating. But still, I believe your poem is well-written & well-meaning . . . maybe more what sounds good to the non-suicidal person & there's nothing wrong with stating your views about it! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

I'm glad you had a lot to say about this, Margie.
I'm so confused why suicide has been spreading like a wildfire everywhere now.

I think it just has to stop.

[Orange]

Hello......................

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Kay you are right suicide is a huge problem and is often neglected as it is difficult to deal with. This piece captures many of the feelings people experience when suicidal and the last two stanzas explain why one might want to draw back.

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Thank you for seeing this as something worth posting, John.
Enjoy your day.