Introverted Feelings.

Life kept in a silent temple,
Mind upset by loud cacophony,
Why this noise? why this argument?
I better walk away before dying.

Why is fear gripping me?
Why am I afraid of having friends?
Why is my mind so much aching?
Always wanting me in aloneness.

Why do I find peace in hikikomori?
Why is solitude my place of rest?
Why do I live so differently?
Loving to live in quietness.

Why am I so glossophobia?
Why is my speech mostly in pen?
Why do I hate being in life drama?
Only wanting my books and pen.

In imagination I asked myself,
Would it be I am an introvert?
But there in my world I go again,
Feeling glorious in fantasy.

Author's Note

Just writing on my personality traits.

What do you think?

Reviews

[barleygirl]

I love learning new words: "hikikomori" & "glossophobia"! Your poem carries off questioning well. I've read a number of "questioning" poems, but after a while, I get tired of the repetitious nature of the line structure. The reason I did not have this response to your repeated questioning is becuz each question is very well-stated & distinct from the other questions. Sometimes such questioning is just the same question asked different ways. But you cover a lot of ground with your various questions. This is exactly like me. I live in a very "alone" way, in the wilderness, & I thrive this way. People think it's a bad thing, but sometimes we just need to go with the way we are & what makes us feel more comfortable in our own lives (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Wow! That's an amazing one, Margie.
Thank you so much.
I really appreciate this review.

[Lyanth]

I think that people associate introvert with negativity. I don't feel that's so,I have been labeled introvert and enjoy getting away. However I also am highly capable of socializing if need be, that doesn't go without saying I'd rather not. Socializing is for me, stressful and unhealthy. We all need a little quiet alone time now and again to get lost in the world of our imaginations unconfined to the expectations of the crowd.
Nicely written "Self-Portrait"

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Thank you so much, Lyanth.
I really appreciate your point of view.

[Lyanth]

I was a pleasure..

[Dr. YumnaKay]

Like Charles Bukowski said, 'People empty me. I have to get away to refill.'
I feel you and this piece. There's a difference between being lonely and being alone, and once you find that solitude in your own self, hard to get away from that...
Nice reading this one.

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Thank you, Dr. YumnaKay
And I'm still learning to know myself more.

[Cherrie Palmer]

Kay dear, you have captured inner doubts so well. I always tell my kids, emotions and or events do not define us. You get to decide that for yourself.
What's a little fear, but exlerraration in the making, just a giant rollercoaster ride.
But I will tell you this your emotions make a great backstory, a very nice piece.

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Thank you so much, Cherrie.
People around me just think I'm different, and most of the time would leave me out of business. This makes me to cling to my inner world the more.

[Cherrie Palmer]

people fear greatness hold your head high, enjoy who you are, only cling to that world because you want to.

R. L.Stine said as a boy we wrote for a place to belong, the imagination can really grow then it needs a place to retreat, and it's not a bad thing to be different. Sheep all look alike and have no individuality. Be grateful you are one of a kind.

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Many thanks, Cherrie.

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Thank you for your understanding.

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

"In imagination I asked myself,
Would it be I am an introvert?
But there in my world I go again,
Feeling glorious in fantasy."

this lines spoke to me a lot. I loved your poem, thankyou.

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Thank you so much for your kind words, Julie.
Your review means a lot to me too.

[Kesch (Finding Julia)]

I can really relate to that last stanza, this is very well penned.

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Thank you so much, Kescha.
Now I know I'm not alone in that.

[augustus]

Too much analysing of one's self can be exciting or dangerous.

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Yes, you're right.
It depends on how much we understand ourselves.

[Jibey]

For me the issue is this: 'Is life out there real or is life in here real?' The imagination has its own reality and how we react to the tangible world outside is all a matter of the mind anyway. So there is an inner life which can transcend the outer life - the glory of fantasy, as you aptly put it.

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Thank you so much for your point of view, Jibey.
That's true.

[Chris Shaw]

Hello Kay, you are a soul who likes to express themselves differently. I can understand that. Each of us has to communicate in the method that suits us best. You are not shouting your feelings from the roof top, you are conveying them in pen, which is what writers do. If you feel that is introverted be assured that you are in good company. You expressed yourself ery clearly here in this fine poem.

Chris

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Thank you so much, Chris.
Life is pretty beautiful to me as an introvert. And I love my personality, only that people call it pomposity and proudness which I think is
a product of misconception.

[Eilis]

Hi, Kay. I understand. I think a lot of writers and creative types feel things like this. And introversion is also common among us. That seems to be one of the drivers to write or seek out some other way of expression.

The need to express oneself is fundamentally human, but everyone has their own comfort level and area they excel in. You’re a writer, be proud. You’re sharing the depths of yourself with us here. That takes guts.

Your first line here is excellent poetry. You’ve encapsulated the feeling that you’re describing so well in those words.

Good work with this.

[Kay Salisu Titilola]

Thank you so much, Eilis.
Your and review here are really true. Trying to communicate is a problem I often solve with writings.
It gives the greatest opportunity to expressed myself.