Overdose

Overdose

Every time I look at you, the voices in my head,
Whisper, scream and shout at me, I know I should be dead.
But God I’ve tried, you know I have, to try and end it all,
But never once have I come close, I always trip and fall.
And when im lay upon the floor, staring at the sky,
When everything spins around and I feel I can fly.
I try to think and wish and dream, of how my life should be,
And suddenly my heart stands still like I’m on ecstasy.
Thrills and pain shoot down my spine, and I begin to shake,
All the colours start to blur, im drowning in a lake.
A lake of blue and burgundy, with water cold as ice,
My hands and feet begin to numb, I’m crucified like Christ.
I felt the pain inside me, tearing me apart,
And as lips over flow with blood, diamonds pierce my heart.
I wish a could fall in love with death, I know I have with pain,
Please help me get away from this, like a shot of Novocain.