Cranky Friend

when you don't want to tell how you feel but they think you are being cranky

Day after day I know I am annoying

But you haven't seen me crying 

trying hard to hide my tears but if you think I am a cranky friend 

then yes I am

It started on my birthday. 

yes! it was my day. 

A day to celebrate, blowing candles and making a wish 

but it ended up as if I wished for another complication 

Though I couldn't say a word,

inside I was dying, blew the candles of my hopes 

I hate to say this but nothing is left 

so if you see me picking up on small issues

crying without reason 

irritated without season 

let it be, just for another day think of me as a cranky friend 

I can't tell you, how much I am going through 

As much as I smile and laugh every time, that's how much I am crying and dying deep inside. 

But don't worry, if my fake smile makes your day then I will try smiling every time, even if I die within.