Frustration

Better things to do anyway

It teased, tormenting her endlessly as it flashed on the screen. It almost spoke to her, almost offered her a begging and then refused to let it slip out. Her fingers hovered over the keys, too afraid to make that one first tap that would determine whether the words cascaded onto the page or stopped with that first sentence, stilted and dead.

Logically, writing didn't work like that. Logically you just started writing and you’d find your inspiration hidden the in the first few minutes of absolute trash. She didn't understand why it had to be so hard for her. Characters didn't live in her head like they did for other people, plot fell onto the page ready-made from a part of her mind she was fully unaware of; the words a surprise to her as she read them.

Only today it wasn't working. Today no amount of silent begging was moving her fingers to translate the air around them into words. Of course that could have something to do with the lack of sleep she’d had last night. She’d lain awake dreading her interview with the landlord tomorrow to get a renewed lease. It could have something to do with the stress three weeks of not writing had gathered up. Being this desperate to write was almost a block in itself; she could hear the insidious whisper in her head. You’re done. You were never that good at this in the first place.

She groaned, praying for the words to come already, to extricate themselves from the cobwebs and jump through her fingers into world. Glaring at her fingers, she begged them to move, to type anything. Nothing; she swore, slamming the screen shut and walking away.

She had more important things to do anyway.

Author's Note

Hey Guys... I hate writers block so much!!! Very stuck for inspiration but i figured something was better than nothing... Let me know what you think!!

Reviews

[Storm K.]

I absolutely love this piece of writing! It has an amazing flow, which is kind of ironic considering that you're talking about not being able to put ideas down on paper. There's so much here that I think other people can relate to, and you've created such a clear picture of the woman and her emotions. I love the metaphors and description of this piece, it's fabulous. Great work! :)

[Conor Larkin]

Wow, I know the feeling! Iv'e been there a lot over the past few weeks..

I love the irony in this piece; how you wrote something so beautiful and relatable about not being able to write!

[Kaya]

Thank you, I was actually kind of amused at the irony myself... I wrote this in an absolute fit of frustration at myself then could hardly stop laughing to post it when i realized it was actually a decent piece. I'm glad you enjoyed it.

[Craig2591]

Well... you just wrote something. Clever, too. Doesn't that count?

"You’re done. You were never that good at this in the first place." - definitely NOT true!

[soliloquy]

I have been there! Maybe i live there? :0(

[Kaya]

It drives me crazy!! I just want to write.. But I know the feeling... i'm beginging to wonder If I'll ever lose it!!

[soliloquy]

You will! Just relax and write something simple, maybe a sentence. Then add a little. Don't stress about it. The world won't end! But just add a little to the page and don't feel like its gotta be expert or perfect. It's probably a lot better than you reAlize.