No Man Left Behind (revised)A Poem by A Glow in the Pit of My Soul
We walk away, to see who follows.
I always followed you, chased you down- You won’t even look towards the horizon where I disappeared from view. Back turned, eyes straight ahead. (Oh, what a Soldier you’ve become; betraying the only one who always had your back) I put every memory of you out of sight, so I am not reminded, but I still think of you every day. How can I not- when there is ink in my skin for you? I chose the placement behind my ear as a symbol of your permanence - always on my mind, while you were deployed- always on my mind, no matter the distance.
Now, all I want is one day-- o n e d a y-- where I won’t think of you. I once thought we were phoenixes; ‘we burn for each other, we are born of each other, no one can hold a candle to this’ Now I’m left here, burning, all alone. I never pictured this hurting so much- hurting more than hearing you were killed in action, hurting more than standing over your casket. I was lying to myself for the past 7 years, and I hate you for letting me believe
you-- that you were still my best friend. All those pretty words you said, they held no meaning behind them. All those apologies
that you never followed through with. Now that I’ve grown up, I can see how meaningless it all was. I can see how disenchanted I was, to think you were my friend, without any ulterior motive. So, I hope whenever you look at her, you see me. And I hope it hurts to know she is not me and simultaneously, the very reason you will never have me, [my friendship] again. And I hope you realize what you've done. Maybe then, you would have given a second thought (But your friendship was always more about taking than giving) about throwing me away and
running for cover- like I was a grenade. Well, Soldier, you still have
the pin clenched between your teeth- how will you ever kiss her sincerely with that metallic taste in the way?
This is my grief over the death of a friendship. Irreparable damage over 12 years has left nothing but smoke and shrapnel in its' wake. © 2015 A Glow in the Pit of My Soul |
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Added on January 21, 2015 Last Updated on January 22, 2015 Tags: betrayal, friendship, descriptive, loss, jaded, metaphor, soldier, war AuthorA Glow in the Pit of My SoulMAAboutMy Legs Can Barely Hold All My Heart & Soul. Live Tall, Live Loud, Live Wide. I was born an old soul with a fresh face, and a knack for taking whatever is in front of me and creating a mast.. more..Writing |