Just another day.

They ask me why i do it, why I never eat.
Just the taste of thin, is far too sweet.
Your head spinning and not having strength,
Is because you hold away food, at arms length.
My minds battling its self,
All I want to do, is prove myself.
I've got to be thinner, I've got to be prettier.
When I'm thin, I'll be happier.
I remember the last time I ate, what happened then.
I sent a quick prayer up, muttering amen.
"You f*****g failure, you can't do anything right".
I almost managed, to put up a fight.
I sat there in the bathroom,
As I have, so many times before.
Door locked tight, water running.
What happens next, is quite disgusting.
Fingers down my throat I'm gagging and crying.
Most days I wish I'm dying.
But I fell better, when its gone,
I know its sickening, I know its wrong.
but I can't forgive what I've done.
I can't forgive what I'd become.
I used to think it stupid, I used to think it sad.
Now I'm going crazy, I know it sounds mad
I held my breath, and tried not to scream.
This has all become a violent stream.
The blade suck deep into my arm.
I hope I'm not causing too much harm.
I fell the blood flow, and whimper a sigh.
I'm sick of hiding it, I'm sick of having to lie.
A moments relief, sink into my veins.
These secrets hold me up, like bloody chains.

Author's Note

Wrote this at lunch while watching my friends eat, what do you think?

Reviews

[Silver_Anime]

wow........i don't know what to say for this one Dx actually, i think this poem really brings the sad emotion for whoever is reading this. and it makes me a bit worried xP
and i agree with emona's comment, except for the disturbing part xD

[Sherbs Dreaming Tree Of..]

Oh i gotta love that comment from emona xD

[emona]

ummmmmmmm about that.....you need to see a doctor honestly this is very disturbing

[Sherbs Dreaming Tree Of..]

Hmmmm...