Drowning.

Drowning
Drowning as the tears don't fall
Drowning as they go back in, flowing down my trachea and filling up my lungs.
Building
Building a wall with my smile
Building a way to keep the emotions inside, keep my true feelings from crawling out.
Choking
Choking back the screams
Choking back the voice of my soul, keeping it to myself so I don't "bother" anyone.
Squeezing
Squeezing my heart together
Squeezing it to keep it from falling apart,
as each thought and emotion rends it apart.
Dying
Dying as each and every one of these kills me, wondering how I can die when I'm already this dead inside, wincing at every spasm, hiding inside myself, tiring, burning, wishing...

Done.