Feel Like Me

Trigger Warning: depression, suicidality, sexual abuse

Do you feel like me
Well I hope you don’t
Cause if you’re like me
Then you’re on your own

How can I be right
When I’ve been so wrong
How can I be here
When I’m so far gone

Do you feel like me
When you can’t find home
When the lights go out
And you’re so alone

Do you feel like me
When it hurts like hell
And you have nowhere
And no one to tell

Do you feel like me
When you’re so in love
But you fall apart
And you’re not enough

Do you feel like me
When your body bleeds
But it’s all okay
Because no one sees

Do you feel like me
Every single day
Waiting for it all
To please go away

Do you feel like me
When you softly weep
All the time you’re awake
Wishing you were asleep

Do you feel like me
When you’re crying out
And no one cares
What you’re crying about

Do you feel like me
Trapped inside the past
Every gasping breath
Praying it’s the last

Do you feel like me
Like you don’t deserve
For your tears to be seen
Or your voice to be heard

When you scream out loud
And you’re saying no
And he hears your voice
But he won’t let go

When you beg and pray
For it all to end
But he grabs you tight
And begins again

When you can’t escape
When you close your eyes
It plays over and over
And you’re trapped inside

In that memory
In that horrible night
And you’re not okay
And it’s not alright

You were just a child
You were just a kid
And you were broken
By the things he did

It was not your fault
You know that it’s true
But still you feel guilty
For just being you

How can I be clean
After what he’s done
How can I have the courage
To tell someone

How can I be right
When he’s made it wrong
How can I be here
When I’m so far gone

Do you feel like me
Well I hope you don’t
But if you’re like me
You are not alone.

Author's Note

Written by Vienna

Reviews

[Arpita Mondal]

This poem is so relatable. I have been under depression from a very young age and I've never had anyone to talk to so I understand how it feels. To wish for your every breath to be the last, to hope that you never existed, to just disappear from the face of the earth. It hurts and it hurts like hell. People tell me things will get better with time, but it doesn't and it never will. I just wanna tell you you're not alone.