Half Full

A Poem by Katie Kistler

when I said next time I’m not gonna do the chasing
that was well before I knew that you existed
the things I do when I’m in love always amaze me
it’s like my heart keeps getting broke but keeps insisting
and now I’m running after you like some puppy
big sad eyes and loyal to a fault
asking every second “do you love me?”
baby, I love you and I don’t know how to stop

but if there’s one thing that I know it’s that you’re staying
I’ve been lied to before but not by you
wasn’t familiar with the game that you were playing
everybody else ends up breaking the rules
but not you
if you were cupid you’d be shooting straight and true
no target practice, throwing axes
hit the bullseye every time
guess that’s your move

you say you’re waiting for the other shoe to drop
and honestly, I think I’m right there, too
shutting down as soon as you get angry
convinced you’re gonna leave and brush me off
but if it’s any consolation, darling, know this
I need you like the air that’s in my lungs
without you I’m a motherfucking goner
I could never ever give up on us, love

so if there’s one thing you should know it’s that I’m staying
you may have been hurt before but not my me
you’re not familiar with the game that I’m playing
I’m following the rules cause I’m no cheat
just trust me
if I were cupid I’d be shooting straight and true
some target practice, throwing axes
missed the bullseye every time
cause they weren’t you

and on the off chance that you’re ever second guessing
just know that I will always pay my dues
thickheaded as my mother raised me
but I can make a promise, baby
I promise that I’m always choosing you