Self Inflicted NightmaresA Poem by Katie KistlerG
I can't believe I'm seeing you again
It's been years and I'm just asking for a friend Did you forget me yet? Did you forgive me yet? Cause I haven't and I don't think I ever will You talk to me in dreams and I can see you still Why are you in my head? Will I ever forget? I carry you with me Through everything The color of your eyes And the number eighteen Black and red and green I wish they didn't mean Anything to me Sorry's not enough And it's a word I'd never say I'll never look you up again I never say your name So why do you haunt me? I thought you fell away You're just hiding in the day Cause my nights are not my own They're spiked with comic gold The girl I never left alone Is coming back for me My nights are always cold You're right I'm far too old to keep these memories I need to learn to let them go I never want to have to see your face For a while there was a period I saw it everyday And it was all my fault I pinned you to my wall I always flinch when someone says your name Don't want to deal with repercussions in a very public place I feel like they all know Why shouldn't they know? I remember what I'd do To just see you I would follow you to places I had never been to To find a better view See you warm and soft and loose But it wasn't meant for me I remember all too much But you're not pulsing through my veins The way that you used to It will never be the same But apparently you'll always be A word I keep behind my teeth A nightmare interrupting sleep Cause my nights are not my own They're spiked with comic gold The girl I never left alone Is coming back for me My nights are always cold You're right I'm far too old to keep these memories I need to learn to let them go © 2017 Katie Kistler |
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