Nostalgic Ramblings (9th Grade Girls)

It's been four years
I fell in love two times
And neither heart was mine
I don't like to talk much
About the first one
But I guess I could try
She was number eighteen on the volley ball team
She was cocky and cute and kind
She called me kiddo
And gave me a conversation heart
That said "be mine"
Her name was Gracie
She was amazing
She was what I didn't know I liked
I remember her face in chemistry
Over test tubes and beakers and firelight
Her face when she saw her face through me
And asked if she could marry me like
Like I could say no to her
Like I could if I tried
Well I remember you, McGruber
I remember what you said
I remember your melting chocolate eyes
Burning holes into my head
Well she was autumn
She was spring
She was nearly everything
The four walls of my mind
Were like bricks and she was ivy

But it all decomposed
When the freckles on the nose
Of another girl enamored me
Like galaxies of prose
She was quiet and sincere
Like a dark and sacred room
She was safe and always near
And made me fall for her too soon
She was romance, she was sin
Just a punk I couldn't win
But this girl is my best friend
Till our days apart kick in
But I know I won't forget
The way she wormed into my head
The way her crooked teeth and messy hair
Made me want her instead
Of even my life's sweetest things
She keeps me warm when winter brings
Its icy fingers to wrap around my neck
She is the greatest thing I've ever seen
The one that's always there for me
The coffee to my tea
The tune to all my memories
And I don't need much more
Love's a chore
I'm sticking to my guns
No more for now
I must not come undone
I will not come undone
No, not for anyone
I'm done
No more falling in love