Letter To An Ex

💔 This is a romantic monologue of sorts. Fact: This is something that I actually wrote to my ex via text.

I know you're not gonna reply or probably even read this but I just had to get all this off of my chest and this is the last thing I have to say to you so I can move on and be at peace. You hurt me a lot with the things you said and I said I hated you but the truth is I don't. I also realize we should've talked about whether it was actually going to work us being so far away from each other but we didn't. We kept saying we would see each other and maybe we would've done but it wouldn't have been the same and we're both going on different paths at this moment in our lives. We're both starting our lives going out into the world and I see now that it wouldn't have worked. You're going one way and I'm going another. I guess what I'm trying to say is even though your words broke my heart I understand why you did what you did. You did it so that you could move on and to be cruel to be kind cause you was gonna hurt me anyways by moving. Not that that excuses what you did cause you crushed me and my heart and made me feel as if I'd done something wrong by ignoring me and saying those nasty things but I can forgive you. I know I'll probably never get an apology but to make peace with what's happened I can forgive you because I know that we both could've handled things differently but we didn't. We were too positive about things because I know now that being far away we would always be constantly worrying about the other and what they're doing and that's not fair to anyone and who wants to do that when they're 100 miles away from someone. You've got to live your life now and I've got to live mine.

I guess the lesson we've got to learn from this is not to sweep our problems under the carpet and act like everything's fine when you know it isn't. You have to face your problems. We didn't we both ran away from them and I regret that but there's nothing that me or you can do to change that now. What's done is done.

We just have to learn and grow from this and know that what we had was great but it's not meant to be at least not right now.

I know you probably don't love me anymore or miss me. I don't know if you was saying those things just to hurt me or if you truly meant them but there will always be a place for you in my heart even though you hurt me cause I know you were scared of what would happen to us if we both lost contact or one of us finding someone else. I just wish things hadn't ended on a bad note but it happened.

This is my last message to you. We had some really amazing, fun times that I'll never forget. I just hope you learn from this like I've done and know that running away from your problems and not dealing with them isn't gonna make them go away.

Whatever you do in life I hope it works out and I'm gonna follow my dreams and see where they take me. Like in that song you sent me I've got to let it go but I'll never forget my love for you ever.

Maybe we'll see each other again someday but for now I just have to do what I've always wanted to do and travel the world. It's gonna take some time but I'll make it happen. We were good while it lasted. I guess it's just the way the story goes sometimes.

We pull the panic cord and things fall apart and someday they might fall back together.

Who knows what the future holds or what fate decides for us?

The best things happen by chance remember.

See ya
Katie - xxx