Dead

I'm a really depressed person, so I wanted to write a poem about myself. Beware of depression. Seriously. R&R please! It's my first legitimate poem!

I hate myself.

I won't deny it.
I'm worthless and all I do is take up space on this Earth.
I don't deserve to be alive.

It's true.
I'm not going to commit suicide or anything, though.
I'm too much of a coward for that.

That's me!
A coward and a weakling.
Someone that is just TOO easy to push around.
You know why it's so easy?
'Cause I don't stand up for myself.
Ever.

I'm dead.
Or, at least, I might as well be.
You see, nobody knows me- the real me.
They never have and they never will.
Not even my best friends.
Not even my parents.
Not even my own sister.

The real me...
She hides, alone, in I corner of my head.
A corner of my soul.

She's tough.
She's straightforward.
She's honest.
But most of all, she's happy.

But she's dying.
She's losing the struggle to survive, to fight against this all-consuming depression.
She's dying.
I'm dying on the inside.

So no one will ever see the real me.
Never.
Not even those who care for me the most.

Because I'm too dead to show them.

Author's Note

NO FLAMES, PLEASE.

With that aside, I'd like to request that you don't tell me to stop being depressed. It won't help, and, frankly, I've never even cut myself or anything. I want to, though. What I'm saying is that I'll be fine. My life's not in danger or anything. So shush. And review. Reviews are good.

Reviews

[Ashwee ♥]

I can really appreciate this poem because well.. I feel the same way. I'm proud of you though, for being so strong, for being so courageous you're here and you're still fighting and that's inspiring. I am also depressed just not quite as strong as you. I enjoyed your poem, STAY STRONG and keep writing, love.

[Katherine R.]

Thanks! Glad you liked it! I never really talk about this kind of stuff, so it's really new to me...

Thanks again!

[Frieda P]

I think it takes more guts to stay afloat when you feel this way....suicide is total surrender and giving up, I know firsthand, my sister committed suicide...nicely pen'd.

[Katherine R.]

I suppose that makes sense. But, I only don't do it BECAUSE I'm afraid. So...

Sorry about your sister, though.

[Frieda P]

Well that in itself is something to hold on to...thanks.

[VertoAtrum]

That girl that's in the back of your mind, the happy one, I'm sure she'll come back one day. I hope things get better for you.
Good job on this too

[Katherine R.]

Hope you're right. But, thanks anyway for positive reviews!

[s y e]

What are you tawwkin' 'bout, this is amazing! I told you, you would be amazing. This is a really powerful poem, Kath (can I call you that? LOL)

You got to stay strong no matter what happens. Great job for purging, it helps, don't you think?

[Katherine R.]

Well, thank you.....

And yes, feel free to call me Kath. It's a new nickname, though. Haven't heard it before. :)