Cognito Ergo SumA Poem by WallflowerLetting go of you Is like letting go of a piece of me; Emancipating A fragment of my identity. I know I can’t blame the past For the present, nor resent it, Or use it to excuse my abuse of you Like a substance that I fiend. I must come clean, Get clean, Dialysis, Dilute you from my bloodstream.
I learned you like a language, You’re in every syllable I know. A semiotic cipher Lodged inside my throat. But even if I tore out my tongue My mind would still speak of you Because love was in my nature But my heart, it nurtured you. We were so young, I was still becoming A woman, learning love From a teacher whose lessons were in vain; An education for the insane and now My every thought is stalked By the shadow of you.
You lurk behind intentions, Ideas and aspirations, You’re always playing on the radio And engraved in wooden fences. You fall out of my pocket In movie tickets and to-do lists. You sit beneath me in my car When I don’t adjust my headrest. You vibrate in my purse Every time my number’s dialed, Even though it’s been a while-- You wipe the smile off my face When I see it isn’t you. You’re in every person that I meet And the ones already known, You’re the reason when in a crowd I always feel alone. You’re the absence in my day That I can’t escape even in sleep Because of course it is your face That invades my every dream.
But, just the same as I learned you in I will learn you out, Even if that means I must carry cumbersome memories Until one day I drown you out. You’re part of my identity And I am my own worst enemy. If I murder mindless melancholy Perhaps I can reintroduce Me to Myself. © 2011 WallflowerReviews
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