Double-bladed knife

why is it that you can't let go of what hurts you most? because it's also something you love.

every day

every single day

every single fricken' day

you watch her enter, innocence radiating from her heart, hope gleaming on her lips, and you tell her and tell her that it's not worth it, it's never going to be worth it

well, you try to tell her

you want to tell her

but you can't help but watch how her eyes widen with that extra layer of light

and her chest just moves that little bit faster

and you stop.

you know.

you think you understand.

and you do.

but it kills you, like a double-bladed knife, 

because you also know that every second you don't give her the mouthful of reality is every second she will be sucked deeper into a black hole that seems so light to her

'what could go wrong?' she asks.

EVERYTHING.

but of course, the word jam itself between my teeth, holding onto my gums with its claws, unwilling to let go until...

until it's too late. 

until it's too late to say 'I told you so.'

Author's Note

just another experience. writing was the way to let it all out.

Reviews

[Traci]

because you also know that every second you don't give her the mouthful of reality is every second she will be sucked deeper into a black hole that seems so light to her

such powerful words. a raw emotional piece that expresses so much. well done, my friend.

[Katho28]

thanks Traci x I wrote this piece during a dark time so had quite a lot of emotions to vent out, writing always does the trick :)