To My Family

To my mother

Why can we not be close?

It's not live we live under

Some other 

Sky or wonder.

I know you care

If you could accept

That I might never bring home a bloke

And will probably be alone and broke.

Things we needed to say

We never spoke.

And to my father

Why would you rather

I be another.

Like my sister or my brother.

It's not like I don't try

Or that I lie.

I will never be

The one you wish and hope to see.

I just want to sit and sleep.

Leave the daughter who wants to be

Alone here to weep

My sister,

Sometimes I just wish you'd share

Show you care.

And we can exchange our fears

And hopes.

You run from me,

Am I that scary?

I know I have wronged you

Am I beyond forgiveness?

Please don't leave me in the cold

Staring at a photo 'til we're old.

Finally, to my brother, younger,

Hi. 

Give me a smile,

Anything to show me you're in there.

You don't know

How proud I am to be of your blood

Maybe you will know one day

And then I will stand and say

I look up to you, 

Eyes grey and blue.

Please listen, just for a while,

And for a moment I'll speak true.

 

I'll wrap it up,

This letter to you all.

It might not be what you want to hear

But it's the truth 

It's something insignificant and small, 

But know that forever, you'll be my all.