I closed my eyes as tight as I
could and laid my head in my lap to keep myself from screaming and
bursting into tears as Blue hung up. I wanted to call him back and ask
him if it was a joke, but I knew it would just be another pointless
heartbreak. I was still in love with him, after everything that we had
been through. I was still in love with Blue, My guy had ripped my heart
out right in front of me and I still wanted him. I felt like an idiot.
Like I was going to vomit all over the floor and just lay in it. I hated
this feeling of realization. I was realizing he didn't care anymore and that he wasn't going to care anymore.
It was Saturday, it had started to snow outside. I
watched the snow flakes sadly, It had been two days since I talked to
him and had my moment of realization. I hadn't gone outside and didn't
plan too, My dad wouldn't be home for another few weeks at the least. I
was used to him leaving to go on missions for the Vampire Society. My
father is a full Vampire but I am just human, he wanted to keep it that
way. But I didn't, I didn't want to keep sulking like this or keep
feeling like I'm so pathetic just like Blue said.
I felt like some stupid emo girl who was never going to get over her
first love. I closed my eyes and wished I was dead. "I wish
someone would take me away, so I would never feel this pain again.." I
whispered. It shocked me when a voice replied. "I can take it all away
for you.."