Too Close

too close...

pain in my eyes

leaking everywhere

smiles and laughs tossed around

fake as plastic b***s in a gown

talking and sharing but only so far

where is the depth that I crave?

walls loom large when risks come close

toe the line...

anxiety shakes and trembles within

too close, too close...

stumbling back calculating

finding the hidden rejection

what price do I pay for my refusal to be?

to live?

to join?

to love?

how much am I willing to sacrifice to stay safe?

so lost and confusing

swirling in agony

others see the pain I try so hard to bury

they look close and see the burning in my eyes

the lost and lonely ghost haunting me

does it scare them?

do they run away when they see the shimmering haze?

does it repel them?

struggling to bury it deep

hide it from the prying scene

I wonder how much more I can take...

too close, too close...

will I ever break?

Reviews

[Jeremy Baker]

I can feel the pain and fear within this. Great writing!

[Inyourshadow]

Anxiety and panic attacks always find a way to ruin all we try to attain, our confidence shattered and our pain so easy read in hollowed eyes, you capture perfectly the way so many of us veiw social gatherings, keep em' coming

[Smokey]

Nice!