January 24,2012. 10:28PM

I try to go to sleep at night but so many thoughts run through my mind. I wonder if your going to be happy tomorrow and if not, if it is my fault. I think of how selfish I was that day. I think of how i could have helped the world that day. I think of who I haven't  seen in the longest time, and I pray to god. Oh do I pray to god. I ask him to forgive me. I ask him to please make my friends see things like I go so they will be happier more often, so they won't want unneeded attention, and so they won't make wrong choices. I ask him to help the less fortunate, and to make nicer people in the future. I know I probably ask of to much from him, but I also thank him fur so much. Like my family,friends, and health. I just wish I didn't get so emotion able when I pray to this outrageous unworldly being. I cry because I feel I am a bad person. I say the wrong things at the wrong times and do the wrong things at the wrong times. Maybe one say I will grow up. Maybe one day we all will.