January 16,2012. 8:27 PM

I feel as if I can't control my emotions when I hear that old song you used to sing to me, or see that person we used to laugh about, or every time someone says your name I can't get you out of my head for days. I guess what I'm trying to say is I miss him. I miss us. It hurts me to know we don't talk. What ever happened to us, we were so madly in love? You said it your self , we would go far in life with each other. At night before i fall asleep I feel their is something missing, wether it's your heart beat beside me or your unrealistic loving phone calls. We were So embarrassing together, but we didn't care. All the incredibly enchanted times we had, nothing could stop us because we just cared about one another, they called us crazy,maybe they were right, maybe that's why it didn't work,I miss all that. Even though we had scarce shortened time together it felt like a life time every time for us. I fall asleep to that old song you used to sing. Insolvent tired of the lyrics I have gotten to memorize and can hardly stand the beat of the instruments, yet I listen to it over and over, perhaps to fill the gap you left on my heart, or maybe so i don't forget you. I know I shouldn't waste my time wishing only I could use another chance, but can't we all. I sob when im alone because I don't want to let people know my sadness has taken over me. It helps to be around many people so I forget about that one person. Even though it is so hard to forget you I have trouble remembering the great times we had, I wish I could tell someone about them, but no one understands. I have completely different ways of thinking about every thing there fore no one an  understand me. I dream of him often, if only these foresaken dreams were real, they constantly bother me. I need him back, for my hearts sake.