January 8, 2012. 9:10 AM

I have the strangest feelings. It feels like an emptiness inside of these bones. It's almost like I'm not good enough for anyone. I'm trying to please every person who comes my way and i am not succeeding. I sometimes think of all I have done wrong or all the reasons I have let the people around me down. When I recall these judgments I know that I have let many people down. I don't mean to be a disturbance to the others around me. I know I shouldn't try to be what every one wants me to be. But when I am my I feel as if I am not loved. That's all I want out of this world is to be loved. Not to be loved by many at a limit but to be loved by few with no end. Yes, I must say that is what I search for most in life the love and affection of a categorized few. I know many people around me, at school for instance, feel I am not good enough to be around them. I find these people are cruel. I wish to know what goes on in there tiny childish brains, maybe then I could know why they are so indecisive and mean. They will never grow out of this essence. This is what sorrows me most. The fact that they will never change. Not one person is better than the next. I know I do succeed with being one of these cruel beings sometimes. I am sorry. I will try to please you as well. I wonder I I am just writing all this down to say I am sorry or maybe I'm jut all around socially incomprehensible. Yes I think that is it. I am also not trying to locate attention from writing all this. I am just writing down my personally mind worthy thoughts of the world through my eyes.