Sleeping with GhostsA Poem by Rhys JacobsInsomnia, ghosts, late nights, what could have been.Wake up, Scrub away the sleep And imperfection. Towel off, cologne and Moisturise. Dry now so I Pick my wardrobe for the day. Old shorts, My new favourite shrt. My stiff hood My sandals fray as I walk down the road. Hours pass in bars, Lecture halls, Cafeterias, Someone's home. My zipper comes apart When I lean back hard, A reaction. You've got me cornered, I smoke through the carton I brought, It's seems easier Than looking in your eyes. I look away, Go, I can't stand the company. And when you're not facing me You're leaning on my shoulder, The one you always touched On the tips of your toes. I feel the balcony slip out under me. I cross my fingers under my sleeves. Let it not be me. I tap my feet. I am panicked, yet discreet. I reach across the dashboard, I clip the box With my bowed head, I'm too scared to look up. I want the world to look away. It feels like I've been walking On the N1 and M5; Harrington and De Villiers Street; St. Simon and Abelia Road Since January. My feet ache from the asphalt And my knees are bloodied and bent I leave. But you find me With unwashed dishes, The context of unopened wine. And empty cigarette cartons. I feel the balcony give way. My feet turn on wood, Or do they turn on tile? I can't keep these houses On a time-line. Do you cut your nails on wood? Execute Paris turns on tile? I imagine you on a shag carpet. Inviting me to dance To 50's swing, But I'm allergic To all that cat hair you carry In your purse and your jersey, I'd be sneezing and coughing My way into an orthopaedic grave. And you've been here before, Your head on my chest And your leg on my thigh. So warm here When your toes curl on me. So wonderful When you hips burrow into me. That hot-blooded rush overcomes me. I sink into an uneasy sleep. Like a cat Your pretend disdain While stealing the heat from my lap And my heart. I see you getting up with me, Your unkempt hair pinned to a mirror And your your bare feet gliding along Our floors like the skater your mother said you were. Your frame turning In the bathroom mirror. The dishes go unwashed, The wine glass spilled And the cartons piled up. A laugh echoed in the hallway. The coffee's boiled over, No sugar to sweeten the bitterness. My clock radio goes off, Ellie Goulding's "Figure 8". You smile and Somewhere in this house, you're singing along Somehow it feels wrong Singing this song Without you.
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Added on March 26, 2014 Last Updated on April 3, 2014 AuthorRhys JacobsCape Town, South AfricaAboutI'm in a burning house and I'm taking you all with me. Pull up a chair and pour yourself a stiff drink. more..Writing
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